PG Test. TTC#3

Well let’s start off by last night. I was reading different symptoms of early pregnancy and it got me all crazy. I have been having extremely light cramps and have had gas. Thinking ohh I just have an upset stomach or it was something I ate. It was then I realized I have been like that for a couple days and also I have had a couple waves of nausea. So I’m reading this and thinking about this and getting more and more anxious.
While i was at work, I text my husband and ask him if he can drive me in the morning. See I’m going to this business that gives free pregnancy test, and its only like four blocks away and I was going to walk.  Then I realized that I’m going to be using first morning urine so I better have him drive me. Lol
So I get there and I have to go so bad and my heart is pounding and my palms are sweating. I walk into the room and pee in the cup. I go into the waiting room and wait.
Which we all know how that feels.. like forever. I kept thinking if its negative its alright we have next month. But whys my period late if my levels are normal? Maybe something else is wrong? All these millions of things raced threw my brain. Then I thought of something that made me feel better. It is what it is and I can’t change it now. I don’t know why but that eased my anxiety I was feeling. Then hubby keeps calling because he was excited. Well the lady talked to me.
She said how she hoped it was positive because me and my husband seemed to have a good strong knowledge of pregnancy. She liked the fact that we are married and she said she could tell that I really wanted this. She also knew I didn’t drink or smoke… just by looking and talking to me. (: so she went in checked it and says its negative. My heart dropped to the floor. I had to hold back the tears as I said OK and grabbed my purse to leave. I told her thank you as I walked out. She apologized and said if no period in ten days to come.back. She also explained to me that she left a note on my file. She said that either i get my bfp at home or there, that she wants to know.
So we went home and got ready to go to idlewild. It was hard to get happy again. I don’t know why this time it beat me up so hard then ever before. I was so hopeful. But its okay. I’m still waiting to hear from OBGYN about my prescription. Maybe next month will be our month. I have to stay positive! Thanks for reading! (:


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