Idlewild Emotions

Hey guys
I just wanted to briefly talk about how my trip went and how I felt.
So the ride down was relaxing just the warm air flowing threw the car listening to some radio. We get there and mind u this was a family event, so there were four kids, eight adults and 3 teenagers. We went through story book forest which was alright. We then ate and that’s when our day started.
We went into the park, me and my husband just went and did our thing and met up with the family every here and there. Now it was nice to have an enjoyable day after a sorta downfall of a morning lol. But there was some negative emotions when I would see pregnant women or new born babies. I usaly am just like awee how cute. But this time it kinda hurt. Like why dot hey get to carry life and I don’t?
Which I know is a terrible way of me to think. So I prayed about it and I felt better. Anytime after that I would see a baby or pregnant women I would think, that’s going to be me soon. I don’t want to be selfish. I hope and pray every women wanting her bfp gets it because they deserve it.
At the end of the day we were beat tired and really had a nice time with everyone. I can’t wait to do it again, maybe next year we will get to enjoy it with our child. (: well thanks for reading!

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TTC Blog #2

So February comes around and I get my levels checked again. Sure enough my levels were high again. This time they referred me to an endocrinologist. I go to this appointment thinking this could change everything. I was so nervous and excited at the same time. He looks at me and say that he is going to prescribed me bromocriptine.
This is a three month dose. I have to take 2.5 milligrams a day. I do this and for the first moth, I had to use provera to stop AF. Second cycle I had to again use provera to stop AF. After I had stop taking the provera the third time (in April), AF had came April 25th and lasted for about seven to eight days.
  Well on May 28th I had done my prolactine level check because I was at my three month mark. Now we are caught up. So today I have 9 days of my medicine left. I called for my lab results and guess what… they were at a nine! (: But this got me thinking if my levels are low andI’ma week late,there is a possibility that I ovulated and may be pregnant right? I know i should have tracked this cycle but i was being lazy and disappointed and just didn’t want to. But now I wish I did. So tomorrow morning I’m taking a test and am so scared lol. Now that bad thing about all this is. The Endocrinologist isn’t prescribing me anymore which I’m going to talk to my obgyn about cause that don’t seem right. Well that’s all for now.. fingers crossed!! Thanks for reading!!

Why I am doing this.

I wanted to talk a little bit on why I am doing this blog. First off, when I had decided to start to TTC I had looked on the internet for answers. Answers to the many questions I had. Then when things didn’t go so smoothly I had looked on the internet for support. I felt alone and really didn’t have anyone to talk to. My husband was as supportive as he could not knowing truely what I was going threw. But I had came acrossed an amazing bunch of YouTube  women that were going threw their own journeys. This was an eye opener for me. Having some hope and encouragement in thoes grey times is wonderful. I originally wanted to do vlogs, which I probably still will end up doing. I just don’t have proper equipment yet. So I want to share my story and relate to other women. I want to be there for them and lift them up along the way. We are all going for one goal, to have our own healthy baby.
  Second reason why I wanted to do these blogs and eventually vlogs, is for documentation reasons. I want to be able to look back and see where I came from and what I have accomplished. I think that it will be worth my time to do this. Who knows what kind of things are going to blossom over these blogs for me? (:
The third and final reason why is because I think that its healthy to express yourself and be creative without boundaries. See on here, its what I make it and I’m free. Well that’s all the reasons on why I’m doing this. Thanks for reading!

Ttc blog #1

I am just going to jump right into it. Around November last year, I started reading and learning about ttc, my body and cycle. I then was ready to go. I had bought CB digital opks and got a bbt to temp and chart.I started taking prenatal vitamins and got hubby some vitamins to take as well. It was fun and exciting when we first started trying. But things changed. I was tracking my cycle and found out I didn’t ovulate. So AF would be late and then she wouldnt go away. So I had to go to the obgyn and they prescribed me provera to stop AF. (She was here with me for 9weeks) when they had done this, she took a level check and seen my prolactin level was high. Hence no ovulation and no chance to get pregnant. She said just take provera and track you cycle for the next two months and we will go from there.
This was devastating to me. I didn’t know how to handle it. The only people that knew we were trying was our pastor, his wife, brothers and sisters. So I could have talked to them but they haven’t went through anything like this. The next two months (december to febuary) went by pretty fast. Ill talk about that next blog. So thanks for reading! (:

About me.

Hello everyone!
So I have never done a blog or anything so bare with me as I learn how to work everything. Okayy well as you can see this is going to be a TTC blog, we will get into all that later. For now I want to explain a little about myself.
  I am currently 21 years old and have been married to my husband for a year. (5/5/12) I don’t know where I would be without him. We are both very family oriented, our families live pretty close to us. Me and my husband are apostolic. I have been in the church for a little over two years.
Well I think that’s about it for now. Short and sweet (:  Next blog will be detailed of my TTC journey so far. Thanks for reading!!